Saturday, October 16, 2004

Well, I finally got around to setting this thing up! Well, to start off, I suppose I should tell a bit about myself and my new blog. [I wrote a small bio in the right column [in the top box], so take a look if you want to know more.] :)

My screenname is ethereal beaches, ethereal meaning heavenly, and beaches... Well, I suppose you get the point. The photograph above is one of my own, and I felt it especially appropriate as well as peaceful, and pleasing to the eye. I wanted to create a calm, serene aura on this page, seeing as I try to mold my life like that also [note the "try"]. Some days you must try harder than others but, so it goes.

I live at home still [since I'm super-cool] and my family and I are in the middle of moving up to the L.A. area. So it's hectic and crazy around here more-so than usual. I have a 3 year old sister, a 13 year old brother [who has about 2436234640934734 girlfriends], a dog, and five cats [one mama, one kitten from her first litter, and three new kittens]... It's never quiet.

I've been unrestrainably excited, slightly nervous, and just a bit nostalgic for the past few weeks. I grew up in this area. I went to elementary school down the hill from my current house. First pet, first kiss, first love, first time, first best friend, first heartbreak... They all happened here.

I just keep telling myself that there can be no progress without change. I will never be able to achieve my dreams if I don't let go of the past and grow. Bluntly, it's also just plain old, flat out, bad karma. Emotional abuse one year, tortorous rumors, verbal attacks and threats the next, then even further, one event that was painful enough as it was turned all of my life-time friends against me, because one person had the gall to blatantly lie in order to save his own reputation, at the cost of mine. Not only my reputation, but it also shattered my trust, and made me grow even more wary... I don't want to live like that.

Jealously is a hideous monster, and high school is where it thrives. This whole area is drenched in it, even after the fact. I need so badly to get away from it, so that it will not drip reminders into my life of how hurtful naive people can be. The masses attempt to destroy what they do not understand, and I refuse to be a part of that.

Too much has happened here, and I drive by these notorious landmarks that burn deeper into these recklessly etched memories in my mind. I cringe when I see some, and ache after others. Anamnesis distracts my already cluttered mind. I am in need of it no longer.

It is time for a new beginning, a fresh start, and a better life. Wish me luck?


Ashley scribbled at 5:30 PM

about me

name: Ashley McCarthy
occupation: actress, dancer, painter, sister, amateur photographer, daughter, html goddess, dreamer, poet, lover
born: Sept. 11 1986
astroligical sign: Virgo



I love my art; acting, and I've been doing it all of my life. Big Kit-Kats and Nestle Crunch bars are heavenly, I love to sip those white russians and cosmos, and I'm a very loyal friend. I honestly believe that hammocks and pajama pants are some of man's best inventions, and that Feng Shui really works. I also believe that Dave Matthews is a musical genious, and that Ben Harper is the reincarnation of Bob Marley, with Jack Johnson as his caucasian counterpart. I think that everyone should read at least one of the current Dalai Lama's books. I have the tendency to be slightly flaky sometimes, but I try really hard not to be. I swear. I like meeting new people. I love the beach at any time. When it's raining in April, when it's 2 o'clock in the morning in August during the persaides, whatever. It's seriously always the best place to be. I like a nice balance in life. I can get wild and crazy. Let loose and have fun no matter what. Live it up. Yet I'm also totally mellow. I can have a roaring firepit going, eat an A's breakfast burrito, and hang on the beach playing gin rummy and backgammon all day [and night] and be the happiest person alive. I also love to sleep. Sleep is my friend. <3

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other peaceful days:
October 2004
July 2005



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